Today, I have come to UNC Hospitals… After spending my morning working on fund raising pieces for a fabulous nonprofit in Pittsboro, NC.
I have come here to register for a Mind-Body Integrative Medicine course. It starts next week. And lasts for ten.
The instructor just led me through a short meditation. Individually. Just she and I in a dark room.
Her Brazilian voice was like butter to me.
She asked me what my personal mantra should be for the next ten weeks.
And I thought. And I thought. And I thought some more.
“Be here now,” I said finally. “Yes. Be here. Now.”
I waxed poetic about Ray LaMontagne in my mind. Because that’s what he sings.
Out loud, I said, “There’s a song I like… It says that. And that’s what I need, I think. To re-learn how to be here… and now. I took away my own structure, and haven’t been able to provide it again for myself since moving here. There’s still too much up in the air.”
And as she looked across the table at me — with her orange head scarf and almond-shaped, honey eyes — I knew it had started.
My process.
Of being here. Now.
